To sum up lately there have been a lot of stresses in my head, mostly to do with work, uni and money. I don't have time to do much and every week smudges into another without hint of letting up.
There was a slight silver lining though, the wedding reception was one of the best parties I have been to and the fact that I got some brand new clothes and a dress made me feel a little better, its odd that I forgot the feeling of elation I get when wearing something new for the first time.

I had to beg for time off to go to this party and my boss was really annoyed to let me have it off. I hate my job but its money in my pocket that saves me starving to death so meh, but I have been very close to packing it in all together. In fact I have been looking for more and more far fetched ideas to get out of the current financial situation I am in. Creating art and jewellery was one of my better ones. I would love to open an ebay shop. I even collected seashells from Koh Samui with the intention of making some shell earings for fun. This still hasn't happened yet, nor has finishing my music portfolio. Gyabo!
Its amazing how fast time goes when you grow up and how it would be so slow when you were young and niave about the world. I have lost sight of my dreams and the drive for my ambitions as the repetition continually grinds me down. I have given up my autonomous nature (if I even had it in the first place) and have settled to be one part of a whole, this is my identity and this is where I feel at home.